Letting Go of the wheel…
The last few weeks can only be described as Pure Magic! It started with a video by Paul Zelizer, a powerfully conscious business leader. Here is the video: http://paulzelizer.com/conscious-relationships/
A little history to provide context: In 2011, I experienced what some would call an “awakening”. I call it higher awareness now. All at once my perception totally shifted and I became aware I was more than flesh and bones. I became aware of other senses and other dimensions. I realized I was a part of something much bigger than me and “that something” was a part of me. I realized I had divine helpers and they were guiding me in a very tangible way. It was wonderfully overwhelming and I lived in a state of bliss for days. The intensity didn’t last, but I was changed forever.
It also came to me during that time there is someone waiting for me; a soulmate I’ve been getting ready for. It’s taken little while. I’m been getting ready for over 30 years. I stopped dating completely. It came to me after this new awareness kicked in that I could trust the Universe; this Power that is constantly conspiring in my favor to put this soulmate relationship together.
After hearing Paul’s words, I woke up the next morning to this message ringing in my ears. “Gail – work with me here. How can I work in your favor if you put yourself in a bubble and me in a box?” I tend to keep pretty much to myself (can you say hermit), especially over the last 6 years. I work from home for the most part. I enjoy A LOT of “me” time.
Paul’s words created a shift in consciousness I felt immediately! I knew a door had just opened and I knew I was going to “Spiritual Dating School” as Paul puts it. Which simply means, I am dating consciously (fully aware) and putting myself out there authentically. I’m staying open to whatever kind of relationship I attract; romance, friendship or otherwise. No matter – all relationships have something to offer. I don’t believe any time is ever wasted.
The following Sunday an impromptu photoshoot miraculously supplied me with a whole new portfolio of pictures to reflect who I have BE-come over the last 6 years (my beloved sister is a gifted photographer). I have never felt prettier or more comfortable in this skin. This was all in perfect timing as you will see later down the page.
Fast forward 1 week later. I’m on vacation at a camping resort in San Diego with friends and family. I’m walking around, enjoying the sunshine and party atmosphere. Standing in a lane, I am totally mesmerized by a gorgeous, talented 40 something stud skateboarding. No helmet, no pads, total confidence. He skates up to me and says, “I’ve been watching you.” You are gorgeous!” Somehow I didn’t miss a beat and my tongue didn’t roll out of my mouth. I responded, “I’ve been watching you and you are pretty awesome yourself. How do you do that?” He said, “You want to learn?” I said – “Suuure”.
I kicked off my flip flops, jumped on the skateboard, held on lightly to his bare shoulder and off I went. I let go and was moving way too fast for comfort! I scared the bejeebies out of myself. I jumped off and off came the hide from big toe. Mr. Stud saunters up and says, “You ready to go again – Oh! You’re bleeding!” “Yep – I said. It’s okay. I’m game if you are, but this time with my shoes on”. He said, “That’s my kind of girl – Not going to let a little blood stop you”.
This time I went slower and he showed me how to square my feet on the board so I had more control. I learned how to put my weight on my toes to go right and on my heels to go left. I learned how to do a 180. I learned how to skateboard in 15 minutes. Now I just need more practice (with pads:). We ended with me asking him to our camp for dinner and expressing a heart-felt thank you. I walked away with a hole in my hide, grinning from ear to ear. And then, I never saw him again.
The impact however was huge. I’ll never forget him. Some of the shortest encounters can have the biggest impacts. This was one of those. He was just what I needed to remind me, even at 60 I can do whatever I want and I am still pretty hot; all to prime me for what is coming soon.
One week later, I’m back home taking a nap on my couch and I have a dream. In it I am standing next to a guy with a lot of luggage at an airport. He sticks out his hand and says “Hi, I’m (he gives me his name)”. Then, I wake up. But I remember the name. A couple of days later I decide to search his name on Facebook and low and behold we have 2 friends in common. What are the odds?
2 days later, I run across a dating site on my Facebook feed – “Meet Mindful”. It resonates. I have had enough experience with synergy now to I know the Universe is throwing me another bone. I fill out the profile, upload the NEW pictures (YES!) and take full advantage of the 3 day free trail. Right away, I have 3 connections that are totally on my page. One invites me to look at his Facebook page and guess what? We have 2 friends in common! More synergy…
This morning during my “Morning Pages”, I was questioning myself and aware of how nervous I was feeling about this new dating adventure. Then I hear this now familiar voice say, “Gail – You are amazing, beautiful, talented, one of a kind, resourceful and fearless! Just BE you. “THE ONE” will recognize you. That’s powerful advice!
Moral of the story – The Universe is always working in our favor to the degree we get out of our own way. I don’t know exactly where all this is headed. I know I will recognize “THE ONE” when we meet. Until then, I will have fun enjoying the company of like-minded men along the way and creating new friendships.
I do expect more magic as I let go of the wheel.
I’ll keep you posted…